Over the last few months I have documented my personal struggle with the decision on the part of a young lady to discontinue our romantic relationship. I did not handle this very well at all, and as they say we see our true character in times of challenge. Needless to say I am not happy with what I have seen and it took a blunt instrument to the head to open my eyes to it.
You would think that with my sales background I would handle rejection better, but when it comes to personal matter that is clearly not the case. I have behaved quite irrationally as of late and hurt someone I care about very much. I built up a scenario in my mind through my hopeless optimism that was clearly not the case. I don't know why I do this, but it seems to be a pattern and I am taking the appropriate steps to figure out how to eliminate this behavior.
I have hurt and been a source of stress for someone I care a great deal about. I can never undue that violation of trust. I wish them all the best in life and fault my own short comings for the way things turned out. Thank you to all of you that have supported me and offered me words of encouragement through this process. Truth be told there is far more tumoil in my life than I have shared here that is completely seperate from this unforgivable transgretion.
I humbly apologize to you all.
It is not wrong to feel the way you do, however you chose the wrong woman to give your heart to, you are not alone in that there are many men who gave thier hearts to the wrong woman and wish they had not. Your feelings are just as legitimate as hers and she should not make you out to be the bad guy, if there is a bad guy in this scenario it would be her for not being completely honest in the first place about her feelings.
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