On Sharing Success

Last night was a great night for both of my ventures.  We had our fashion show at the Bellevue Art Museum for their Finally Friday event.  It was a great turn out and the designers we're well received.  I am very proud of everyone on our team that made this event possible.

That being said, it was a bitter sweet success.  First of all I cannot walk into the museum without memories of the time my Lady and I spent there on her trip to Seattle flooding into my mind.  Secondly, I'm not able to share this success with her due to our current situation.

The saying, "behind every good man there's a good woman," has been a recurring tape in my mind of late.  I'll have to admit that I never work harder to achieve things than when there is a woman in my life.  Is that healthy?  I don't know?  What I do know is that when my Lady was in my life I felt unstoppable, there was nothing that was out of reach for me.  I looked forward to sharing my successes with her, and credited her presence in my life for them.

The problem I have with the phrase is the word, "behind."  A spouse or significant other should never be subjugated with such a word.  Words have more power than we give them credit for sometimes.  I do not want a woman in my life that would be subservient to me.  She should be an equal, a partner in all things.

If anything I should be subservient to her.  Not in a passive aggressive, let her walk all over you sort of way.  In the honor her and cherish her for as long as you both shall live sort of way.  Honoring my Lady was very much the driver for me.  The universe had blessed me with this incredible creature that captured my heart and soul.  How do you repay something like that?  How do you give proper homage for such a gift?

Evidently I was never able to reconcile these questions as I now find myself without her.  A situation I hope is only temporary...